Strange Fruit

So anyways...

I am at work right now, waiting for this cello recital to finish bouncing, and I thought I'd do a little updating.. plus I kind of left you all hanging after that last one... I know you were waiting at your computers until I had filled you in on how wonderful my life is! ha.

Well here it is.

So basically, in the last few weeks or so, God has completely been laying his hand on my shoulder and I can almost feel him saying to me 'this is how I see the world, you are almost on the right path, just give everything completely up to me, and you will be free, but for now, you're doing alright!' !! I can almost feel that guiding presence, (kind of like bumper-bowling), and He has been filling me with comfort in the past few days.

Now, I don't want to sound like I completely know exactly where God is leading me, or that I have the slightest inkling of where His grand plan is going to take me, but I have been working on letting Him take the reigns and it feels good. I also don't want to sound like Im bragging at all because it's all His doing, but the reassurance that I have been getting from professors and fellow audio majors has been helping a lot. For instance, I was granted a scholarship for my major, one that's chosen by the professors of School of Media Arts & Studies (formerly Telecommunications) and it is such a blessing.

Also, I have been working on giving my dating life up to Him as well. This has always been a challenge for me, because for some idiotic reason, I feel like my timing is better, which is ridiculous... but I hold on tight to this vision I have for my own romantic life and I selfishly don't want to give that up. Recently, however, there has been a bit of a switch... its not 100% yet, because I still have a few hang-ups, but I feel like there is improvement.. Baby steps... Today, I was walking around town, perfectly content being by myself on this gloriously beautiful day, and I though to myself that it feels really good to not be lonely. It was a big thought, and it made me smile.


My parents came down for the scholarship banquet, and it was nice for them to get a tiny glimpse of what a TCOM (its habit) student does. My mom stayed for a bit of Mom's Weekend here on campus and there were special speakers here from the music business, kind of heavy-hitters, so she got to hear them, as well as Ken Scott, who used to produce The Beatles and a dillion other amazing records, so she got to hear him speak. She also came to a show with me at one of he bars up-town, which was sponsored by the school, so there were big-wig music people there, TCOM professors, and drunken students, and it was free... so it was quite the show... it was a good time. She brought me a bunch of homemade food, and warm hugs. I was getting a little home-sick so it was really nice to be with family.

I have been working on starting the process of getting ready to study abroad next year! It's going to be a long process because I still don't really know what program Im going to do it through, or really where exactly I want to go yet, but the two choices right now are London and Sweden. London would be amazing for music but it's extremely expensive to live there. I really hope that it works out because I want to travel a little before I have to settle for being a tourist the rest of my life.

I also decided that I am going to attend graduate school.
Also that I'm going to try being a roadie for a while before I settle down (that is if I don't have a possible job offer after school).

I also decided that few friends and I are going to hike a bit of the Appalachian trail the summer after I finish with undergrad. Should be a good time.

Circumstances have been happening where I have been reflecting on my life. Looking back, I have been seeing so blatantly that I have a really amazing life. I am not trying to sound self-centered, but I am really in awe. People, who are really close to me, have faced such intense hardships, and I can only listen because I can relate to an extent, but the most I can do is be willing to go through the process with them, and praise the Lord that my entire life has been blanketed by His love, by prayer, by safety (for the most part, with the exception of a few small injuries), and by grace. Now, living life is hard. We were not meant to be on this earth because it's only temporary; we were not made for it. Our souls are not meant to be of it. So, living life is difficult sometimes. Looking at my life is such an eye opener because it has been so amazing, and it's just giving me so many reasons to be thanking and praising God for how good He is.

Life is good.

Thank you Lord for that.